One Floundering Soul & One Chief

[Loretta Riddell (Elohi)]

So long ago I wrote a story  questioning  "Who Am I" because I had

seemingly lost my way ..lost the understanding of knowing who I was.

I was surrounded with  those who  lived with true Faith in a Higher

Being who would guide us and protect us  and had made the ultimate

Sacrifice for us.

I was also surrounded by those who may have broken his rules, leaving

me to question "The Sins Of the Father" only I was  wondering if it

ment the sins of the Mother and the Father and would they be visited

upon me..

I wrote about the struggle to understand evil that visited a young life,

War ripping a Family apart and children torn seperated by the two they

must Honor and yet accept the changes in their lives.

The fight to become a adult  to early because times were hard and

understanding was impossible..The misguided  dream of a home

Family and creating  only that  which would love me, protect me, and

allow me to live by the Laws of  Him who had Sacrificed everything for

me.

The Struggle to understand a weak heart like the Fathers was the sins

of the Father  visited upon me..the cancer in me and the loss of 3 sons

and the  mind   remembering  go forth and be fruitful, was the sins of the

Mother visited upon me... A life in limbo clinging to tribual beliefs, the

Holy  book  and pain..until one day a friend shared what I had written

with  a Chief she knew on a Oklahoma Reservation...

One day I got a message to visit  a web page he had, and there was

my Story and his message at the end  wishing me Peace and Harmony.

He as time passed shared his story of struggles and trials..

How he learned to live life without the guilt of others choices but his

chosen path..that their trials were to be lessons learned to prepare

him for trials he might face  in the future.. love dying in some did not

mean they  lost their love for you............He taught me my trials were

to prepare me for the future be it comforting  the sick or sheltering

a child... Through many months he  reinforced my Beliefs my Faith and

taught me to understand my Life is my  Choices, my Trials are Lessons

I will need sometime in the Future and only I know if my choices make

me question what I am doing or at peace with my  choices....

I have chosen to live my life with Choices that leave me with the same

Peace of my Chief who lived his last  months dying of Cancer listening

to music for his Soul that eased his pain and suffering..while giving

Love  and reassuring Peaceful  thoughts  that we would all be together

again in another and better place. Spending months on the floor to

avoid un-neccasary pain , his computer on the floor so he could

reach out to those he cared about.. and reminding us all ..it is..

Your Life.

Let no man chose your Path,

Your Choices shall bring you Peace.

Peace and Harmony until we meet again...

Written By
©Loretta Riddell

2014