I had been planning and advertising a fundraiser for our team for the 2012 MS Walk in Cleveland this year. Not only was i able to get 5 Sponsors for our Team T-Shirt but was able to get numerous donated items for our raffles. We did not charge a cover charge, thinking it turned people off from fundraisers. We told people that we were depending on selling the raffle tickets. Well, today was our fundraiser and it was a total dud! I sunk a lot of time and money into it, advertising like mad.
I've literally bent over backwards over the years to help people, I love helping people. Was i stupid to think that maybe a few would return a favor, a favor that i was hoping i didn't have to ask for but assume people would help me? I'm not a victim player, i don't wine and complain about my disease. I'll even humble myself and say i'm a bit embarrassed of it and hate being judged by it, so i keep it to myself. My mom and kids, my BF and her boyfriend and one lady with MS showed up and that's it! I had a high school charity group that volunteered to help, no one showed. A friend of mine was suppose to come take pics for the event and the walk to create a mini documentary, he didn't show. His wife took a fundraiser shit and still has not paid for it (my fault there i guess eh?) person after person got my high hopes up and even my BF got dupped by her own friends as well.
We were the laughing stock of the place, i was so hurt and pissed off that i was determined to quit it all, even the walk. I began cutting the trinkets off the $36 worth of carnations we bought and began throwing them in the trash. It was then my BF found out i bought them. I didnt tell people how much money i poured into this thing.
My best friend is determined to have another somewhere else but i told i didnt want to sell tickets. She said people will come if they have to buy tickets cause the get to drink and eat all they want. I wanted people to come because they gave a shit, not for the drunkenness and mouth stuffing?!
I was most tempted to clear my FB page. I have a bitter taste in my mouth at the moment concerning my future with the people i know and my morals for helping anyone anymore. Have people really become that selfish and lazy these days?! My BF told me, "The good thing about fundraisers is that it shows you who your real friends are." I use to NOT believe that but since experimenting myself for the first time, i'm beginning to wonder BIG TIME! I've since cleaned the slate beginning with my husband...best thing I've ever done! Yet i'm tempted to clean it all and to say screw them all, minus my BF and call it a day. I don't want to allow this situation to turn me into a cold hearted person but what the point anymore? I hate the way i'm feeling right now but don't know what to do, i cant pretend and smile in people faces because that's not just me! Sorry for venting but i'm really stuck on this one.