Back in my bad old days my addiction caused
much pain to those who loved me and
to those who did not..equally so it's said.
And part of staying clean and sober..
once I put the bottle down-was
One thing learned was that in some cases the
damage done is not repairable and that attempting to do so
can cause far more pain than the original act.
Hence the Serenity Prayer
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
I have arrived at a mile storm of sorts in that
at 30 years clean and sober ,
I've equaled it out and matched my drinking and using
with sobriety..an equal number of take off's
and landings so it's said.
Today i look back on it all and wonder sometimes
why I'm still here at all,
after what had to be a life of "God Protected Drunks"
and being high enough to duck hunt with a rake.
Did I really avoid all those cars..or did they avoid me.
Can a past like this one be a priceless asset..?
To keep it you have to give it away
and this I do everyday- at AA meetings
both online and at local halls and at the local V.A.
Where you won't find me is at the American Legion
and other Veteran events where drinking is the
primary purpose and booze never will heal the mind
The only ending I see there is putting the bottle
to your head and pulling the trigger
I bring all this up in the hope that some one out there
might read in my words that there is a life after drinking
after drugs.. there is hope if this old wasicu can do it..
if this old quart a vodka (why is it always vodka) a day can quit
so can you.